Tom, dick and Woody Allen!

The word "genius" has been flippantly used by the media these days. The media, has mutated it by labeling every Tom,Dick and Harry oh and Bill! "Genius"!

True genius in the classical sense of the word does still exist..

The man who made these works of art is a true genius!

Woody Allen _ YOU ARE A GENIUS!

Coming soon: a full fledged post on Vicky, Crstina Barcelona and Cassandra's dream!

BTW: Javier Bardem, Peneolpe cruz is officialy the "luckiest woman in the universe"!

look whos talking!

Conversation is an art..

A bevy of opinions +
Healthy arguments+

no one involved losing sight of the situation +

people who know what they are talking about +

a dollop of humor +

So many perspectives +

A wide spectrum of age and generations+

good ambiance +

good food on the table( this is not an absolute necesity, but hey! it gives a nice touch)+

contrasting personalities+

Seamless shifting from topic to topic+

Wonderful topics

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= A blissful evening

Other ingredients can be added to the mix to make it better too!

PS:

Post, a result of a stimulating 2 hour conversation about vaishnavism/ religion / customs / marriage we had at home with my uncles family!

%&#$

Cricket + nails = mess!

Losing sucks!!

India lost the Sachin vs australia o.d.i!

more tomoro!

My bucket list

" Happiness is found along the way, not at he end of the road" . When I reach the end of my road, I want to have had all the happiness possible in life.. Here's my bucket list..

Some of these are objective and some subjective

1. Climb atop the burj dubai.

2. Bunjee jump from the 'Red Bridge' in Switzerland.

3. Watch a GP and a Man u match at the circuit/stadium.

4.Beat my brother at carrom ( This, I myself know is impossible)

5. Hand-letter a tee that reads "kill the grateful dead"

6.Kill Spencer Pratt and Theiry henry.(wishful thinking)

7. Visit bruges in Belgium.

8. Ride atop the London eye.( High aspirations? Pun intended)

9. Write a book(*scoofs at self* make way for the next salman rushdie *face palm*)

10. Go snorkeling in Phuket, thailand.

11. Buy a vintage dress from eclectica,NYC

12. OWN A FENDER MUSTANG in aqua blue!

13. Learn to play 'heartbreaker" on my fender mustang.

14. Wear an Oscar de la renta gown and Chopard jewels (yeah! right)

15. Create some artwork ! ( *laughs at self* i who can't even draw a straight line0

16. Drink a tequila shot, just once in life!

17. Have Ralph Lauren custom design a dress pour moi.

18. Perfect my French.( which maintenant, is on a tres pathetic state)

19. Visit the Niagara with my parents, when they are 60!

20.Learn to cook a gourmet!

21. Learn all of Barathiyars poems! ( atleast read all of 'em)

22. Get hold of a collector's edition 'Bleach' Vinyl.

23. Own some memorabilia of Kurt Cobain's.

24. Earn enough to support one orphan's education from kindergarten to Phd.

25. *tada* Attend one rock concert, preferably punk rock. watch either coldplay, green day,avenged sevenfold, megadeth or kings of leon from the mosh pit, pogo to them, head bang to them and audience surf!

Phew!! I need to be alive for the lifetime of a score of people to achieve all tis i guess! Elixir of life anyone?? Also this is more like a 1000gallon tank list.. not a bucket list! LOL

P.S: ralph lauren if you're reading this i'm available at my email 24*7

Super Nova

If I could perfect time travel, bring back the dead, find an equilibrium in the time-space continuum and more than anything get these people to set their egos aside and play together, i would have whipped up the perfect band EVER....

ah.. wishful thinking is such a pain in the ass!

Kurt Cobain on lead vocals (seriously, did u think otherwise?)

Slash on Lead Guitar

Sid Vicious on bass

Dale Crover on drums

I generally don't give much for rhythm guitars, b/c i just love NIRVANA's sound and they had just a lead guitar and a bass.. but still just in case

John Frusciante on Rhythm Guitars.

alternatively, If Dale Crover is too "punk" for the mainstream, i would go with Jon Bonham..

All the best bands are dictatorships so Kurt would write all the songs and the others would just play.

This would require a supernova of NIRVANa, Guns n Roses, The Sex pistols, the Chilli peppers and either the Melvins or Led zep! makes my head spin.

P.S : See i'm unbiased. I did not put Kurt Cobain on lead guitars.. I know he's not the best guitarist out there (or not out there, in Kurt's case) , but hey! I dunno one other band where the Lead singer was also the Lead guitarist,they would play rhythm guitar but lead? I haven't heard of any except NIRVANA! That's why Kurt's the best! \m/

Whats's your perfect band?

Hindsight is cruel!

Helpless? Hapless?

Probably the word I hate the most - "HELPLESS" .

I wish I had the power to change certain things that happened or accept it, get some closure and move on. I hate the fact that I was too young, I lived half a world away, My parents wouldn't have let me, I wouldn't have made a difference anyway.. I hate the fact that scientists have not yet perfected time travel, I don't have psychic powers, I might be turning into a cynic or worse a nihilist, today!

I hate the fact that I was helpless then, and I still am.

Or maybe It's just hapless.. Unfortunate..

P.S

This should be added to the list in the previous post! Since this deserves to be in the limelight at present, I'm not editing the previous one to include this, but giving it a stage of it's own!

Waking up at 1.30am to watch Roger "the greatest player ever" Federer , struggle to find an answer to Juan Martin Del Potro a.k.a "the elf" 's blistering forehand. That kid is a revelation.

oh! and BTW, I dunno why I keep refereing to Delpo as "kid" .Afterall he's only like 4 months younger to me. weird.. Hmmmm..

Few things that turn an existence into L.I.F.E

Most of the these things are subjective.. so...

1.The person inside, holding the elevator door open for u when u are in hurry.
2.Sharing a cuppa coffee @ oven fresh with ur grandad.
3.Your Juniors inviting u personally to ur college symposium, even though U no longer study there.
4.Your dog eagerly jumping on u and soiling ur crisp white dress.
5. dad surprising u with a Kurt Cobain poster(insert ur favorite rockstar/moviestar/sportstar here) . Daddy for President!.
6.Finding the NIRVANA bootleg u were desperately looking for.
7.Finding there's just one more candy left when u thought u had eaten it all.
8.playing "odd or even" with ur bro to decide who has to buy the milk today.
9.both u and ur bro picking zero when playing the above odd or even!!!!
10. Ur best friend introducing u to his new sis-in-law whom he has known but for a few days and she saying "oh! I know all about her! I recognise from everything u've told me".
11.Finding ur favorite F.R.I.E.N.D.S episode on tv.
12.Chatting with ur friend over text messages when suddenly ur phone says "last sms cost 25p" and realising u've just sent ur 101st text of the day.
13. Hearing ur dad bathroom-singing "All apologies" :P .
14. Watching "Ek Duje Ke Liye" with ur parents.
15. Zeenat Aman's dress in "churaliya hai thumne"
16.Befriending Courtney Love Cobain thru' twitter!
17.Eagerly awaiting the birth of ur cousins baby, so u can be an aunt for the first time!
18.Headbanging to Breed while taking a walk and people staring at u.
19.private jokes.
20 Being able to share a naughty joke/limerick with ur parents without cringing.
21.Breaking curfew on nights out with friends.
22.Reading a good book in one sitting.
23. Screaming for ur favorite team to win till ur hoarse.
24.mom calling u saying, just boarded the train will reach there tuesday, after she has been out of town for a whole week.
25. Learning both u and Kurt Cobain hated Ernest hemmingway and both loved vintage clothes(I love them, but sadly don't own even one.)
26. Finally getting the right output on a program that's been bugging u forever!
27.Layla- The guitar riff!
28.Coffee.
29.The sight of Kurt Cobain trashing equipment/stage dive/ jump 15ft onto the drums/creating feedback that lasts for minutes after the show/defy the corporate establishment(remember the "corporate magazines still suck" tee on the rolling stone cover?/picking his nose/staring at the wall.. anything!
30.A crowd of more than 10000 people singing along to "Lithium" in one voice.
31.Smells like teen spirit!

The one with the Parodies.

If u don't know the words to Teen spirit this post will NOT be funny to u! I have put up the original lyrics below not for someone to learn them(if u don't know the song already,this post will be lost on u), but for those of us who know the song and love it , to have a point of reference!

These are the original words to Teen Spirit

Load up on guns
Bring your friends
Its fun to lose
And to pretend
Shes overboard
Myself assured
I know I know
A dirty word

Hello (x 16)

With the lights out its less dangerous
Here we are now
Entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now
Entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido
Yea

Im worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end

Hello (x 16)

Chorus

And I forget
Just what it takes
And yet I guess it makes me smile
I found it hard
Its hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind

Hello (x 16)

chorus

A denial( x 6)

Both these videos poke fun at the fact that no one could understand a single word of what Kurt sand when "teen spirit" first came out!

The first one is called "Smells like NIRVANA" and is by a guy called Weird Al Jankovic. It's a shot for shot parody of the Teen spirit video..It was a video approved by Kurt and i just almost choked from laughing the first time I saw it!





The second one happens to be a version of "Misheard" Smells like teen spirit lyrics. This is the most hilarious version ever.

Smells Like Sexism!

Of prejudices and preconceived notions.

Scene: A busy intersection, thrown in a broken down truck blocking the road for good measure,somewhere in the Godforsaken place called Coimbatore!
Starring : A pretty girl, 2 self proclaimed "cool dudes"( Wearing clothing u sneaked out of the girls section, pants that are about to fall off, driving a macho bike with faux raybans and china touch phones is not cool! . Knowing how to be a gentleman? Thats C.O.O.L)

Text in parentheses indicates thoughts in pretty girls head!

PG is wearing a tee that has 2 pictures of Kurt Cobain below the words NIRVANA. The back of the tee also reads NIRVANA in big block letters.

CD1: Hey look that girl is wearing NIRVANA!
PG:(wow! fellow NIRVANA fans, how nice!)
CD2: (without missing a beat!) Yeah!Must be her brother's tee!
PG: (Is the tee that big for me?)
CD1: yeah! of course which girl would listen to NIRVANA?

That incident was prejudice a it's best!! by now u have guessed pretty girl was *drum rolls* MOI!

The only thought running through my mind was U want perjudice? I'll show u prejudice! U listen to "teen spirit" and"come as you are" and consider yourselves big NIRVANA fans? Do u have the bootlegs i have? How many NIRVANA songs do u even know?10?20?*scoff*! How many concert setlists can u recite? can u name even one of Kurt's guitars? Do u own "with the lights out"? Do u even know it's inCESTicide and not inSECTicide? oh!what? u thought Love buzz was a NIRVANA song?

Part of me wanted to go prove to them how hardcore a fan was I.But I took the high road and sped away!

This is not a question of a girl listening to NIRVANA! This is indeed a question of unadultered sexism! The misconceptions about women among men is endless!I'm not the kind to say hey! Lookey! Kiran Bedi is the 1st IPS! I feel sickened whenever i see a headline read "So-So becomes the First woman to do s0 and so!" Why is it such a big deal anyway? Who even created the distinction of being "the first woman?"I"m not the kind to say women can to anything men can! Infact i like men to carry my bags for me,give up their places to me in a crowded bus.in fact i hate the word woman! somehow i find it so uncivilized.we should be called ladies!

I'm not a feminist! in fact i believe being a feminist is actually a weakness. Has anyone ever hear of a "manist"? Then why should there be feminism?

I'm the kinda girl who would gladly give a man the upper hand in any relationship.Afterall, he is a MAN!

I'm not saying a man should command and a lady should obey, but just that the man must be the leader, but the lady must not be meek and submissive.( Well, i'm the kind that would probably point out hot chicks for her man to check out, so whatdayaknow?)

But when men act in a prejudiced way when it comes to the opposite sex, it irks me to no extent. Most of the guys I meet ,are surprised by the fact that i follow EPL or F1! Why? Is testosterone a necesary criteria for watching sports?Even more are surprised by the fact that i love Rock music!Why?Should a girl not listen t anything other than backstreet boys?My male friends are stumped by the fact that one girl friend of mine is a gadget freak!Why?Don't girls have enough grey matter to be tech savvy? I could go on and on but seeing as i have been totally incoherent throughout the post, i will stop here!

I will say this : Kurt sings in Territorial pissings "never met a wise man;If so it is a woman".. I have to say I respectfully disagree Kurt.. Men are wise.. as long as they realize women are wiser :)! so u see Kurt was a wise man.

R.I.P Innocence

I chanced upon this photo of me and my cousins from i dunno how many years back. Probably the last time we have ever looked innocent. Nostalgia is beautiful.

P.S: The guy on my right is Sharanyan or his alter ego Ryan.A.Nash as some fellow bloggers know him.

The "anti-guitar" Hero

"I will address the NIRVANA negative stuff in my next post!"

This was what i posted on the 10th if August.. 18 days and 8 posts later, i still haven't done what i said.. and since a certain someone has pointed this out, I'll go right on ahead and do it.

Each of the points i set out to prove wrong in this post are tweets I received.

Myth 1:Kurt was not a good guitarist.

Rolling stone magazine ranked Kurt 11th in it's list of "100 greatest guitarists of all time".Although i have to accept that it's a pretty high placing for Kurt, I still think that Kurt was a great guitarist. To people who say he single handedly abolished the whole "guitar solo" part in rock songs, i agree with you. NIRVANA's songs never had a huge guitar solo( with a few exceptions like School,Aneurysm) and whatever little riff was there was more often than not a slight modification of the verse(Come as you are, About a girl). Most of the time Kurt did not even bother to learn the solos and they ended up being different from performance to performance. All said and done, Kurt's use of feedback and distortions was spectacular. There was this on concert(Mtv live and loud) where he has a guitar duel with Pat Smear where his playing is just mind blowing. Kurt's guitar riff's were simple consisting of mainly a few chords but they were amazing all the same.

Now listen to his performance on MTV unplugged. It's just acoustic guitars and with the ambience and everything it just sounds heavenly(My mom sits down and listens whenever i play this dvd!!!). His guitar solo at the end of "the man who sold the world" is beyond words.

At the end of each concert Kurt would just jam like mad and then bring his guitar near the amplifiers and monitors. Feedback would fill the place and the crowd would go crazy(Reading festival '92).That guitar sound was priceless

Being a good guitarist in my book doesnt mean who can play the fastest or the loudest or play the hardest songs. It was in playing riffs that blended with the song's melody.When Kurt developed the hybrid "jag-stang" guitar he called himself an "anti-guitar hero".

If you look back to his "bleach" days where his lyrics weren't as good as in his later stages, he compensated by playing fast and complicated hooks.

Kurt always admitted he was no "Virtuoso" . He once remarked about Seogvia "I can never be as good a guitar player as Segovia, but the flipside he probably could never have play like me". Kurt created his own style that fit seamlessly into his songwriting and thats what mattered.

NIRVANA were a three pice band and for Kurt to sing like he did and also play the leads was just awesome.Yeah, he let his playing be guided by instinct rather than technical proficiency, but who cares?When he cranked it up, he could make a racket. when he mellowed down, he could sound beautiful.Kurt never proclaimed to be this "hot , hair metal guitar players" who play half an hour solos.

What brought about the whole misconception that he was a bad player was that his lyrics were so great that the guitar just faded in caomparison. But Kurt always said "Music first, lyrics second".On songs like "love buzz" he plays some really fast riffs.

just because he didn't, did not mean he couldn't.

The bottomline is that Yes! he wasn't this great technical player but what he did with the guitar is still pure magic.

I didn't think i'll have so much to say so the rest of the myth's in the days to come.

P.S: That's Kurt in a photo from 1989 while doing one of his crazy dives.Upside down,mid air and still playing.. OH YEAH!

Daffodils

I have this friend from school.He's one of my bestest friends ever( although he's the biggest snob on earth). This guy, he's not ur average guy.. He likes classic poems(I can't name one guy i know that has read any poetry apart from the ones in the curriculum). Six years ago we were prescribed the poem "Daffodils" by William Wordsworth he like the poem so much that named his digital self ram_daffodils(email,IM everything).He's brothers getting married this weekend and Ram had his email id printed on the invitation and Voila! he still hadn't changed it! i seriously dunno what to make out of it. All said and done though it made me revisit daffodils in my head and i realised what a wonderful poem it really is.. so good that i'll reproduce it here.. enjoy!

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced, but they
Out-did the sparkling leaves in glee;
A poet could not be but gay,
In such a jocund company!
I gazed—and gazed—but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

William Wordswoth

BTW if U are or U know any guy who reads classic poetry, drop a comment, so that i can assure Ram he ain't alone in this.

The one with Nickelback.

I'm through with standin' in lines to clubs I'll never get in

It's like the bottom of the ninth and I'm never gonna win

This life hasn't turned out

Quite the way I want it to be

(Tell me what you want)

I want a brand new house on an episode of Cribs

And a bathroom I can play baseball in

And a king size tub

Big enough for ten plus me

(Yeah, so what you need?)

I need a a credit card that's got no limit

And a big black jet with a bedroom in it

Gonna join the mile high club

At thirty-seven thousand feet

(Been there, done that)

I want a new tour bus full of old guitars

My own star on Hollywood Boulevard

Somewhere between Cher

And James Dean is fine for me

(So how you gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life

For fortune and fame

I'd even cut my hair

And change my name

'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars

And live in hilltop houses, drivin' fifteen cars

The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap

We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat

And we'll hang out in the coolest bars

In the VIP with the movie stars

Every good gold digger's gonna wind up there

Every Playboy bunny with her bleach blond hair

And well, hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels

Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes

Sign a couple autographs

So I can eat my meals for free

(I'll have the quesadilla, ha, ha)

I'm gonna dress my ass with the latest fashion

Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion

Gonna date a centerfold that loves

To blow my money for me

(So how you gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life

For fortune and fame

I'd even cut my hair

And change my name

'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars

And live in hilltop houses, drivin' fifteen cars

The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap

We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat

And we'll hang out in the coolest bars

In the VIP with the movie stars

Every good gold digger's gonna wind up there

Every Playboy bunny with her bleach blond hair

And we'll hide out in the private rooms

With the latest dictionary of today's who's who

They'll get you anything with that evil smile

Everybody's got a drug dealer on speed dial

Well, hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

I'm gonna sing those songs that offend the censors

Gonna pop my pills from a Pez dispenser

Get washed-up singers writin' all my songs

Lipsynk 'em every night so I don't get 'em wrong

Well, we all just wanna be big rockstars

And live in hilltop houses, drivin' fifteen cars

The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap

We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat

And we'll hang out in the coolest bars

In the VIP with the movie stars

Every good gold digger's gonna wind up there

Every Playboy bunny with her bleach blond hair

And we'll hide out in the private rooms

With the latest dictionary of today's who's who

They'll get you anything with that evil smile

Everybody's got a drug dealer on speed dial

Well, hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

-Nickelback

Sarcasm at it's best!

Sometimes I think.. Sometimes I Don't

My previous post, a classic example of the "Don't" part. I regret saying the stuff i said.. I saw something i did not like and just because i had a keyboard, fingers and an internet connection I took this blog as a plaform to vent my anger... But in the end i ended up sounding shockingly cavalier.. Yes, i was angry at James Hetfield for saying the stuff he said.. but only because I'm passionate about NIRVANA but what if he had said the same thing about say,eminem? I would have been the first person to laugh and just b/c he commented on Kurt, i went ahead and thrashed his music while in reality i still like their music..One thing i know for sure no one should ever call me a "good sport" :(

Hindsight is a bitch!

Metallica fans "Stay away"!

Metallica- A band I used to kinda like. "The Day that Never Comes" was a constant fixture on my playlist until about 5 minutes ago until i deleted that and the rest of the Metallica songs right off my phone. No! I do not have bipolar tendencies. There is a perfectly sane reason for my conduct. I don't cuss as a rule but please forgive my languagein this post.Hope i'm at my sarcastic best .

One thing about me though, I'm fiery. My friend from school even went as far to wonder if I have some Latin blood in me. So when I feel stongly about something I'm ruthless and scathing about people who are against it.The person bearing the brunt of my fury at this moment is James Hetfield.(Sorry Metallica fans)

Thursday, 20th August 2009

20.30 hrs: I open youtube

20.31 hrs: Type in Kurt Cobain

0.015sec later(or so sayeth youtube) a bevy of results pops up, everything from the infamous stoned interview to the stage diving fight.

20.32hrs After Pondering quiet a bit over which vid to watch( I allowed myself only 1. Effing BSNL and it's frickin' limits) i pick the one headbanger's ball video(BTW check this one out!Kurt wears a yellow ball gown b/c wait for it, It's a ball and is just plainly being a goofball) .

20.36hrs The vid plays out and youtube has to show off by recommending related videos. Interestingly, the very 2nd recommendation's captioned James F*&@#%G Hetfield ( Alright I added the expletive as his middle name. you tube didn't suggest it that way!) on Kurt Cobain.

20.37: I decide to cheat on my self imposed 1 video limit & take a peek.Navigate my mouse over and click with some trepidation.

Few mins later (I was kinda jittery at this unlikely combination that i gave two hoots to the exact time anymore) a metallica concert footage comes on with JFH mumbling something about his drummer being passed out b/c he was hopelessy drunk( so unprofessional BTW) and needing a few more minutes to play. So he decides to grow a brain and deliver a wisecrack.This from a man who in my opinion can't play in tune to the others even if Pythogoras himself tuned his guitar and Jamey boy, being this big star(cough) & all u shouldn't call a "plectrum" a "pick". Unfortunately for jamey though you have to be born with a brain which he wasn't so his wisecrack ends up being the most offensive thing ever to fall on my ears. He makes this utterly gross Joke about Kurt that i won't even bother repeating.This draws a lukewarm response from the audience. Anyone with a brain stem would have taken the cue & stopped, but not Jamey b/c well he doesn't have one. He makes the next stupid joke which i transcribe here:

What has 4 arms & 4 legs & works @ Mcdonalds? The rest of NIRVANA!

How funny? Someone ought to tell Jamey boy that Kurt still continues to sell more records than him, Oh wait Kurt's dead right? RIGHT! and he still outsells you!last time i checked(& i check everyday) Dave Grohl, NIRVANA's drummer, heads this awesome band called Foo Fighters. Jamey do u think having half a good verse and then screaming lke ur facing apocalypse makes for a good song? You want a lesson in how to make screaming artistic? Listen to "Aneurysm" or "Breed" oh yeah U don't have money to buy the record do u? Yeah! What will u do? No one wants to listen to a bunch of middle aged "men"( no wait! Men? i don't think so!) . I will personally lend u the record.

Didn't momma teach you not to insult the dead Jamey boy? Or where you so pissed off about the fact that a bunch of kids from seattle kicked ur ass in the 90's? Were u sour that even though u have been around since ice age, u still haven't managed to have the influence Kurt did in 4 years?

All this after Kurt personally said u were a great band! Fie on u!

Like Kurt would say, Plankton like you are a waste of sperm and egg.

Thank God they cremated Kurt and not bury him. He would be turning over in his grave if he had been buried!

P.S: Stay away is a beautiful NIRVANA song.. thats the reason for the quoted in the title! And my deepest apologies if have hurt the feelings of Metallica fans. I toyed with the idea of making this post but in the end Kurt means a lot to me! So sorry again

It's only words!

Sometimes conversations can turn into debates which just suck the wind outta u, but other times they may turn into reflections and that kinda stimulate u to no end!

P.S: I feel officially yuck for naming a post after a "boy-zone" song!

SOS

I love my new template and all, but half the time, it doesn't even work for me! does it work for y'all?

A post at 3.00 Am from a teary eyed me

My hands shake as i type this post. I listened to the "Le Zenith", live in paris (14/2/1994) version of "Where did you sleep last night" (by Nirvana) around 10.00Pm last night.It's past 3.00 Am now and i still can't sleep. I heard that song alone in the darkness of my room on my headphones and I cried, not just silent tears kind, but all out wailing kind for how long i dunno.. I dunno what brought on the tears but i couldn't stop. When Kurt says "shiver for me" in one bridge i really did shiver, whether for him, i know not! It's 3.00am and i'm nowhere near sleeping as yet. My body is still reacting to that song.. I never knew a song could affect me this profoundly..Something about that song, whether the cello or the gut wrenching way Kurt sings it(he seems almost in tears in the 1st verse..so much raw emotion) went straight to my soul.. I still am crying sporadically and for the first time ever, i'm not ashamed to admit it..

The bottom line is I still haven't obtained closure over the fact that Kurt is gone and i dunno how i'm gonna deal with it...