Kurt Cobain-Prelude

For months now, i've wanted to make a post about Kurt Cobain.It's a post close to my heart and well, I want it to be this blog's magnum opus so to speak! I've done so many drafts, but somehow still haven't been able to do justice to the man or his music. They say Nirvana's music is sacred and untouchable, well, so is Kurt Cobain.I can't just go ahead and type whatever i want when i finally make the post about him. Anyone who has ever listened to Nirvana's music, and has given a hoot to the lyrics will know how many dynamics were there to Kurt.

Just when i finally decided to post, I got my hands on Kurt's journals released after his death!It's 304 pages long and it's slightly difficult to decipher Kurt's handwriting in places, but even more difficult to even begin to fathom the meaning in them.I'm gonna read it, try and understand it and then post! For now, those of you who don't understand what all the hoopla is about, i leave you with Kurt's suicide note. Read it,Don't just peruse it, but really read it, try and understand the beauty and pain behind each letter and then wait for my Kurt post.

To Boddah

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things.
For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddy Mercury], who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.
On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!
I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.
I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar.
Please keep going Courtney :)
for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU

Long time comin!

I haven't blogged since.. stone age!!Not that I din't have stuff to blog about,not that I had swine flew, not that i was a participant on "I'm NOT a celebrity get me outta here" stuck in some coasta rican jungle,not even the fact that I had exceeded my internet Bandwidth limit alloted, but simply because, i've been..L.A.Z.Y..

Over the "Century" since i last blogged, there has been no dearth of topics i wanted to blog about.

below,i provide a list of stuff i wanted to blog about.. some , any or none of them may turn into a full fledged post.

Alfred Hitchcocks movies.

Paul Newman,Stevie Mcqueen.

Kurt Cobain.

Animal rights in general, PETA in particular.

The "Remember me" script. (BTW: Doesn't matter if it's not a very nice thing to do, find this script online & read it!This movie is never going to get released in India,so it's ok reading the script!Move over "Sixth Sense" Gimme RM)

The mundane way, i spend my day!

People with bad grammar.(OUCH!)

People who use bad grammar on purpose(Not cool!)

Twitter.

Comic Con,San Diego.

Why I absolutely adore Chandler Bing!

My celeb crushes till date *insert girly giggle*

and *drum rolls*.......

TADA.. Robert Pattinson (I know! So surprised aren't u? maybe i should go asist Manoj.Night shymalan!!)

The Hangover!

1 adorable freak + 1 henpecked boyfriend + 1 classy groom + Bradley Cooper(He's eye candy for the girls and His caharacter is what every boy want's to be) + Las Vegas + Friggin' awesome dialogues +! hellua story line + total irresponsibilty + some nuts thrown in+ oodles of the "cool" factor = one Goddam amazing movie!!

P.S: i don't drink but now,i wan2 go to Las Vegas and just get punch drunk just for one night!!

GO WATCH THE MOVIE!!!PERIOD!

Srtictly for 20 somethings tho' !

Andy Roddick!

The best man did NOT wim Wimbledon this time!Andy Roddick deserved to win.I don't want to analyze the match nor do I have anything against Roger, but i'm and have always been a harcore Andy girl and he should have won!bottomline!Tennis is cruel and so is fate!

I'm not dealing with this very well, talking about it just sets off another bout of tears(I've already used my lifetime's quota of tears!) so i'll leave this post with one thought! If there is indeed a God, he did one hellua crappy job yesterday with the finals!

MEMO TO GOD

Andy Roddick played better, was more gracious and is definitely the better man of the two.Why-o-why for Pete's sake should he lose?Is it Karma?Is it just written?Is it just that you thought it will be fun to watch him suffer?To quote Bruce Nolan

"God is a mean kid sitting on an anthill with a magnifying glass"!

U should be fired!

American Idol--Amateur Idol?

I'm sitting down to write this post with a humoungous cup of Italian coffee(Melosa!Try it, it's God sent) some wonderful music(courtesy Sharanyan!Cuz become a DJ!Oh! and his house has the best food!Gr8 music+Gr8 food+PJ's from my bro=clubbin' experience!I don't drink so i don't need me no alcohol!and i definitely don't dance!) and lotsa time on my hands..so it might end up completly 180 from where it started!Read at ur own discretion!

"AMERICAN IDOL"-The single most watched TV show on Earth(If u ask Ryan Seacrest, even Martians watch it).It garners 100's of millions of votes each season,catapults virtual unknowns into stardom,spews out multiplatinum recording artists and grammy winners and makes a lot of moolah.It's a show i've been watching from day 1,and though i hate to admit it, it's my guilty pleasure.I feel guilty because a section of the performers are too amateurish to even sing in their bathrooms,but like me, many fellow criminals tune in to watch the drama and a fairytale unfold right before our very eyes and yeah! ofcourse there's Simon Cowell the saving grace of the entire thing!

There was this show which gave AI an ass kicking of a life time!Rockstar INXS!The show had legendary band INXS on a quest to find a half decent replacement for their dead lead singer Michael Hutchence!Those are big shoes to fill!The contestants were professionals and totally awesome!

Let's pit the two against each other!

*ting*ROUND 1:

The Judges

AI:

Randy jackson:

He's my dawg!But Randy I can't tolerate there being a score of "Greatest artists of the known world!" and BS! No! u NO U DID NOT work with Jesus Christ!Stop blowing ur own trumpet!But i give u props for being adorable and giving some meaningful comments!

Paula Abdul:

Paula ur sweet and i could fit u in my pocket,but have u swallowed a theasauraus or are u secretly preparing to write GRE hun? And no! I don't carry my Gibberish to English dictionary around too! Woman u danced with a cat(watch opposites attract) for heaven's sake!Paula dear, ur on AI not project runway.Can u please comment on the singing and no the "pallette of what they are wearing"(she actually said this).

Simon Cowell:

He's my home boy!A class act!I love anything British!

The fourth judge is just in consequential and i don't even want to mention her!

ROCKSTAR : INXS

INXS are one of the greatest bands of the era and their judging was consumately professional!

In addition we had Dave Navarro of Red Hot Chilli Peppers as a judge too!That man has some serious chops!The word outfit was probably never mentioned on the show and they may not have been as verbose as Paula but man! were their comments meaningful or what?

ROUND 1:Despite Simon, It soes to Rockstar!

ROUND 2:THE HOSTS

AI:

Ryan Seacrest, u are eye candy, sweet, smart and incredibly humourous! We love the jibes Simon and Ryan poke at each other!We love that you are short but still manly! We love when u say "Seacrest Out'.U are always impeccably dressed, u can think on ur feet and i tellu, u host the Academy awards and the Oscars will no longer be a chance for the big screen to show how boring the small screen is!

RS:INXS

Brooke Burke, a playboy playmate!She is a model and we know models ain't exactly Albert Einsteins!Brooke honey, U look gorgeous but stick to occupations that require u to never open ur mouth doll!go on!! Run to Papa Hugh Heffner and play with ur bunnies now!!

ROUND 2:I'm team Ryan on this one!!

ROUND 3:THE BANDS

AI had Rickey Minor while RS had the House band! This is a no contest! Rickey and the band are gr8 but unfortunately i'm not in Kindergarden anymore!

ROUND 3:The House band are badass!

ROUND 4:The Format

AI:

AI had a theme each week and the contestants had a wide repetoire of songs to choose from, nost contestants though pushed the enevlope too far by doing covers of originals that the "theme" became redundant!For eg: We would hear a Jon Wayne cover of "Because the night" for 70's week!(I din' know Wayne was a reincarnation of Patty Smyth!oh wait! she's still alive!Wow maybe the AI contestants perfected the clonning process)Plus, AI had zero innovation till season 7 when they allowed contestants to play instuments!Now atleast contestants bring their own arrangements to give new twists to popular songs!Like Kris Allen's Heartless or David Cook's Hello(Please ban Whitney Houston songs from idol!pls).Leaving the entire eliminating power in the hands of the viewers begets disaters like Sanjaya,Taylor Hicks and Scott Savol!(Simon Fuller there's a lil' thing called learning from experience!) And please do away with the awful, obviously lip-synced,corny group numbers!(And while ur on it can u pls check if someone slipped Coke(cocaine) into Paula's water cup!maybe that's why she's so incoherent!)and we don't want to see shameless plugging for movies produced by ur studios too!Get rid of the "mentor" crap too! Seriusly! Quentin Tarantino as a mentor on a music show?What is he? The lead singer of the "I have a new movie comin' out, so i'll go pretend i'm John lennon to a bunch of idiots" band?The man is the director of Kill Bill not Sound of Music!Were u all stoned when u brought him on the show?

RS:INXS

The public decides the bottom three then they sing for their lives.They sing INXS classics with INXS themselves backin up as the band(OMG) and then INXS choses who goes home!Neat! Also the contestants are given a songlist to chose from each week and the haggling over the songs adds oodles of drama!AI take note no fillers to drag the show,no stupid ford commercials, no cheesy group numbers,no plugging for movies and oh! the contestants week in and week out have to give their own arrangements of the originals!That gave rise to some amazing songs (goto youtube and listen to J.D.Fortunes California Dreamin' or Marty's Hit me baby one more time!) there was also a week where contestants had to compose their own songs.This week gave us Pretty Vegas(J.D) and trees(Marty)!

ROUND 4:Not even a contest!RS gives AI a Suckah punch!

FINAL ROUND:The contestants

AI:

People like Adam Lambert, Kris Allen,David cook,Chris Daughtry and Constantine Maroulis not withstanding AI's contestants should be rechristened from a "Crop of Singers" to a "Crap of singers"Want proof here's a list of people who belonged to the list of supposedly top 12 best singers in USA!Sanjaya Malakar,Scott Savol,Chris Sliegh,Lindsay Cardinale,Taylor Hicks,Reuben Stuttard,John stevens,Mandisa,Niko Smith,Kevin Covais,Camille Velasco,Mikalah Gordon,Paris Bennet(princess P!my foot!),Haley Scarnato,Kristy Lee Cook!

There were some gr8 singers i accept (Tamyra Gray,Kelly Clarkson,JPL,Bo Bice,Carrie Underwood,Jenifer Hudson,Ace Young,Daughtry,Eliot Yamin,Blake Lewis,Melinda Doolitle,Michael Johns,Carly Smithson, Brooke White,Danny Gokey, Kris and Adam) but they are too lil' too late!

RS:INXS

J.D, Marty,Mig, Jordis Unga, Suzzie Mcneal to name of few were simply awesome!period!They sang reall songs(Joan Jett,Nirvana, metallica as opposed to Whitney Houston,Celine Dion,) and they were really musically inclined.. Marty who had never sung a pop song before was asked to sing Hit me baby one more time.He flipped it and made it his own!(That's what i call a judges pick!No boundaries(Kara's song for Kris and Adam) is just judges SICK!

Bottomline:It's a knock out!(Yeah!I know this year's AI was the best so far,esp the finale,but finding a crop of singers like this year again is a huge ask!Adam Lamberts don't happen every year!).

P.S: I love David Cook though!He's one Hellua singer!take a listen to Light on. u'll know what i'm talking about!And If u don't like Adam Lambert ur musically retarted!He's friggin' awesome!

P.P.S: If u haven't seen ROCKSTAR:INXS yet, it is worth waking up @ 3 in the morning and downloading! Trust me!(Watch it for J.D's songs if not for anything else!)(BTW, is it P.P.S or P.S.S? Who cares anyway?)