Conversation is an art..
" Happiness is found along the way, not at he end of the road" . When I reach the end of my road, I want to have had all the happiness possible in life.. Here's my bucket list..
If I could perfect time travel, bring back the dead, find an equilibrium in the time-space continuum and more than anything get these people to set their egos aside and play together, i would have whipped up the perfect band EVER....
Probably the word I hate the most - "HELPLESS" .
I wish I had the power to change certain things that happened or accept it, get some closure and move on. I hate the fact that I was too young, I lived half a world away, My parents wouldn't have let me, I wouldn't have made a difference anyway.. I hate the fact that scientists have not yet perfected time travel, I don't have psychic powers, I might be turning into a cynic or worse a nihilist, today!
I hate the fact that I was helpless then, and I still am.
Or maybe It's just hapless.. Unfortunate..
This should be added to the list in the previous post! Since this deserves to be in the limelight at present, I'm not editing the previous one to include this, but giving it a stage of it's own!
Waking up at 1.30am to watch Roger "the greatest player ever" Federer , struggle to find an answer to Juan Martin Del Potro a.k.a "the elf" 's blistering forehand. That kid is a revelation.
oh! and BTW, I dunno why I keep refereing to Delpo as "kid" .Afterall he's only like 4 months younger to me. weird.. Hmmmm..
Most of the these things are subjective.. so...
1.The person inside, holding the elevator door open for u when u are in hurry.
2.Sharing a cuppa coffee @ oven fresh with ur grandad.
3.Your Juniors inviting u personally to ur college symposium, even though U no longer study there.
4.Your dog eagerly jumping on u and soiling ur crisp white dress.
5. dad surprising u with a Kurt Cobain poster(insert ur favorite rockstar/moviestar/sportstar here) . Daddy for President!.
6.Finding the NIRVANA bootleg u were desperately looking for.
7.Finding there's just one more candy left when u thought u had eaten it all.
8.playing "odd or even" with ur bro to decide who has to buy the milk today.
9.both u and ur bro picking zero when playing the above odd or even!!!!
10. Ur best friend introducing u to his new sis-in-law whom he has known but for a few days and she saying "oh! I know all about her! I recognise from everything u've told me".
11.Finding ur favorite F.R.I.E.N.D.S episode on tv.
12.Chatting with ur friend over text messages when suddenly ur phone says "last sms cost 25p" and realising u've just sent ur 101st text of the day.
13. Hearing ur dad bathroom-singing "All apologies" :P .
14. Watching "Ek Duje Ke Liye" with ur parents.
15. Zeenat Aman's dress in "churaliya hai thumne"
16.Befriending Courtney Love Cobain thru' twitter!
17.Eagerly awaiting the birth of ur cousins baby, so u can be an aunt for the first time!
18.Headbanging to Breed while taking a walk and people staring at u.
19.private jokes.
20 Being able to share a naughty joke/limerick with ur parents without cringing.
21.Breaking curfew on nights out with friends.
22.Reading a good book in one sitting.
23. Screaming for ur favorite team to win till ur hoarse.
24.mom calling u saying, just boarded the train will reach there tuesday, after she has been out of town for a whole week.
25. Learning both u and Kurt Cobain hated Ernest hemmingway and both loved vintage clothes(I love them, but sadly don't own even one.)
26. Finally getting the right output on a program that's been bugging u forever!
27.Layla- The guitar riff!
28.Coffee.
29.The sight of Kurt Cobain trashing equipment/stage dive/ jump 15ft onto the drums/creating feedback that lasts for minutes after the show/defy the corporate establishment(remember the "corporate magazines still suck" tee on the rolling stone cover?/picking his nose/staring at the wall.. anything!
30.A crowd of more than 10000 people singing along to "Lithium" in one voice.
31.Smells like teen spirit!
If u don't know the words to Teen spirit this post will NOT be funny to u! I have put up the original lyrics below not for someone to learn them(if u don't know the song already,this post will be lost on u), but for those of us who know the song and love it , to have a point of reference!
These are the original words to Teen Spirit
Load up on guns
Bring your friends
Its fun to lose
And to pretend
Shes overboard
Myself assured
I know I know
A dirty word
Hello (x 16)
With the lights out its less dangerous
Here we are now
Entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now
Entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido
Yea
Im worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end
Hello (x 16)
Chorus
And I forget
Just what it takes
And yet I guess it makes me smile
I found it hard
Its hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind
Hello (x 16)
chorus
A denial( x 6)
Both these videos poke fun at the fact that no one could understand a single word of what Kurt sand when "teen spirit" first came out!
The first one is called "Smells like NIRVANA" and is by a guy called Weird Al Jankovic. It's a shot for shot parody of the Teen spirit video..It was a video approved by Kurt and i just almost choked from laughing the first time I saw it!
The second one happens to be a version of "Misheard" Smells like teen spirit lyrics. This is the most hilarious version ever.
Of prejudices and preconceived notions.
Scene: A busy intersection, thrown in a broken down truck blocking the road for good measure,somewhere in the Godforsaken place called Coimbatore!
Starring : A pretty girl, 2 self proclaimed "cool dudes"( Wearing clothing u sneaked out of the girls section, pants that are about to fall off, driving a macho bike with faux raybans and china touch phones is not cool! . Knowing how to be a gentleman? Thats C.O.O.L)
Text in parentheses indicates thoughts in pretty girls head!
PG is wearing a tee that has 2 pictures of Kurt Cobain below the words NIRVANA. The back of the tee also reads NIRVANA in big block letters.
CD1: Hey look that girl is wearing NIRVANA!
PG:(wow! fellow NIRVANA fans, how nice!)
CD2: (without missing a beat!) Yeah!Must be her brother's tee!
PG: (Is the tee that big for me?)
CD1: yeah! of course which girl would listen to NIRVANA?
That incident was prejudice a it's best!! by now u have guessed pretty girl was *drum rolls* MOI!
The only thought running through my mind was U want perjudice? I'll show u prejudice! U listen to "teen spirit" and"come as you are" and consider yourselves big NIRVANA fans? Do u have the bootlegs i have? How many NIRVANA songs do u even know?10?20?*scoff*! How many concert setlists can u recite? can u name even one of Kurt's guitars? Do u own "with the lights out"? Do u even know it's inCESTicide and not inSECTicide? oh!what? u thought Love buzz was a NIRVANA song?
Part of me wanted to go prove to them how hardcore a fan was I.But I took the high road and sped away!
This is not a question of a girl listening to NIRVANA! This is indeed a question of unadultered sexism! The misconceptions about women among men is endless!I'm not the kind to say hey! Lookey! Kiran Bedi is the 1st IPS! I feel sickened whenever i see a headline read "So-So becomes the First woman to do s0 and so!" Why is it such a big deal anyway? Who even created the distinction of being "the first woman?"I"m not the kind to say women can to anything men can! Infact i like men to carry my bags for me,give up their places to me in a crowded bus.in fact i hate the word woman! somehow i find it so uncivilized.we should be called ladies!
I'm not a feminist! in fact i believe being a feminist is actually a weakness. Has anyone ever hear of a "manist"? Then why should there be feminism?
I'm the kinda girl who would gladly give a man the upper hand in any relationship.Afterall, he is a MAN!
I'm not saying a man should command and a lady should obey, but just that the man must be the leader, but the lady must not be meek and submissive.( Well, i'm the kind that would probably point out hot chicks for her man to check out, so whatdayaknow?)
But when men act in a prejudiced way when it comes to the opposite sex, it irks me to no extent. Most of the guys I meet ,are surprised by the fact that i follow EPL or F1! Why? Is testosterone a necesary criteria for watching sports?Even more are surprised by the fact that i love Rock music!Why?Should a girl not listen t anything other than backstreet boys?My male friends are stumped by the fact that one girl friend of mine is a gadget freak!Why?Don't girls have enough grey matter to be tech savvy? I could go on and on but seeing as i have been totally incoherent throughout the post, i will stop here!
I will say this : Kurt sings in Territorial pissings "never met a wise man;If so it is a woman".. I have to say I respectfully disagree Kurt.. Men are wise.. as long as they realize women are wiser :)! so u see Kurt was a wise man.
I have this friend from school.He's one of my bestest friends ever( although he's the biggest snob on earth). This guy, he's not ur average guy.. He likes classic poems(I can't name one guy i know that has read any poetry apart from the ones in the curriculum). Six years ago we were prescribed the poem "Daffodils" by William Wordsworth he like the poem so much that named his digital self ram_daffodils(email,IM everything).He's brothers getting married this weekend and Ram had his email id printed on the invitation and Voila! he still hadn't changed it! i seriously dunno what to make out of it. All said and done though it made me revisit daffodils in my head and i realised what a wonderful poem it really is.. so good that i'll reproduce it here.. enjoy!
My previous post, a classic example of the "Don't" part. I regret saying the stuff i said.. I saw something i did not like and just because i had a keyboard, fingers and an internet connection I took this blog as a plaform to vent my anger... But in the end i ended up sounding shockingly cavalier.. Yes, i was angry at James Hetfield for saying the stuff he said.. but only because I'm passionate about NIRVANA but what if he had said the same thing about say,eminem? I would have been the first person to laugh and just b/c he commented on Kurt, i went ahead and thrashed his music while in reality i still like their music..One thing i know for sure no one should ever call me a "good sport" :(
Hindsight is a bitch!
Metallica- A band I used to kinda like. "The Day that Never Comes" was a constant fixture on my playlist until about 5 minutes ago until i deleted that and the rest of the Metallica songs right off my phone. No! I do not have bipolar tendencies. There is a perfectly sane reason for my conduct. I don't cuss as a rule but please forgive my languagein this post.Hope i'm at my sarcastic best .
Sometimes conversations can turn into debates which just suck the wind outta u, but other times they may turn into reflections and that kinda stimulate u to no end!
P.S: I feel officially yuck for naming a post after a "boy-zone" song!
I love my new template and all, but half the time, it doesn't even work for me! does it work for y'all?
My hands shake as i type this post. I listened to the "Le Zenith", live in paris (14/2/1994) version of "Where did you sleep last night" (by Nirvana) around 10.00Pm last night.It's past 3.00 Am now and i still can't sleep. I heard that song alone in the darkness of my room on my headphones and I cried, not just silent tears kind, but all out wailing kind for how long i dunno.. I dunno what brought on the tears but i couldn't stop. When Kurt says "shiver for me" in one bridge i really did shiver, whether for him, i know not! It's 3.00am and i'm nowhere near sleeping as yet. My body is still reacting to that song.. I never knew a song could affect me this profoundly..Something about that song, whether the cello or the gut wrenching way Kurt sings it(he seems almost in tears in the 1st verse..so much raw emotion) went straight to my soul.. I still am crying sporadically and for the first time ever, i'm not ashamed to admit it..
The bottom line is I still haven't obtained closure over the fact that Kurt is gone and i dunno how i'm gonna deal with it...
The following sentence must be written on Post it's and stuck before every reality singing show contestant.
"Don't even attempt to sing coldplay even if someone is holding a gun to your head! No one has Chris Martin's range."
This sentence must be put into the contract these people sign.
"No one is sure if Kurt Cobain committed suicide , but you most definitely will if you even attempt any of his songs. It physically hurts if anyone else sings Nirvana"
P.S : The one exception would be Marty Casey's performance of "Lithium" on Rockstar:INXS . He nailed it!
I'm going to have to retract what i posted earlier about "Seasons in the sun" . I took a listen to the original version of the song by Terry Jacks and I absolutely loved it! I guess my haterd towards the song originated from Westlife covering it! (C'mon U can't have names like Kian, consider a duet with Maraih Carey(yuck!) as ur crowning glory, cover Barry Manilow songs, perform on Mtv IMMIES and expect me to take u serioulsy and what kinda name is "westlife"?) The song indeed had some beautiful lines, "goodbye papa,it's hard to die" being the most touching on of 'em all. I listened to Nirvana's version too. They switched instruments (Kurt-drums, Dave Grohl- Bass and Krist Novelsic on lead guitar for this song) and Kurt really seemed to portray the agony in the song in his voice. Now I'm in love with the song but Westlife's version still sound Karaoke to me! Nirvana's version Classic case of what happens when a great song meets a great artist.
Question: Is Nirvana the Best Band ever?
During my forays (ahem!) into Kurt's life, I chanced upon a video and I was in for a rude awakening. Never in my wildest dreams I imagined i would utter this sentence "Nirvana covered seasons in the season"!!!!!!!!! That was one song that i had immense contempt for.(Noticed the past tense have you? well i can't have contempt for something covered by Nirvana!) come on! Westlife covered it of all people. Westlife is one band i love to hate. They go out and cover all these classics. Uptwown Girl was a song immortalized by Billy Joel and these guys had to go turn it into a karaoke version. So to even imagine Kurt singing the same song as Kian ( who is a memeber of westlife) just hurts physically! What was Kurt thinking?( We had pot, we had weed, we covered the first song we could read!). Then again, Kurt can even sing the phonebook in his guttaral voice with his sweet angel face and I would listen.
For months now, i've wanted to make a post about Kurt Cobain.It's a post close to my heart and well, I want it to be this blog's magnum opus so to speak! I've done so many drafts, but somehow still haven't been able to do justice to the man or his music. They say Nirvana's music is sacred and untouchable, well, so is Kurt Cobain.I can't just go ahead and type whatever i want when i finally make the post about him. Anyone who has ever listened to Nirvana's music, and has given a hoot to the lyrics will know how many dynamics were there to Kurt.
To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things.
For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddy Mercury], who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.
On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!
I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.
I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar.
Please keep going Courtney :)
for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU
I haven't blogged since.. stone age!!Not that I din't have stuff to blog about,not that I had swine flew, not that i was a participant on "I'm NOT a celebrity get me outta here" stuck in some coasta rican jungle,not even the fact that I had exceeded my internet Bandwidth limit alloted, but simply because, i've been..L.A.Z.Y..
1 adorable freak + 1 henpecked boyfriend + 1 classy groom + Bradley Cooper(He's eye candy for the girls and His caharacter is what every boy want's to be) + Las Vegas + Friggin' awesome dialogues +! hellua story line + total irresponsibilty + some nuts thrown in+ oodles of the "cool" factor = one Goddam amazing movie!!
The best man did NOT wim Wimbledon this time!Andy Roddick deserved to win.I don't want to analyze the match nor do I have anything against Roger, but i'm and have always been a harcore Andy girl and he should have won!bottomline!Tennis is cruel and so is fate!
I'm sitting down to write this post with a humoungous cup of Italian coffee(Melosa!Try it, it's God sent) some wonderful music(courtesy Sharanyan!Cuz become a DJ!Oh! and his house has the best food!Gr8 music+Gr8 food+PJ's from my bro=clubbin' experience!I don't drink so i don't need me no alcohol!and i definitely don't dance!) and lotsa time on my hands..so it might end up completly 180 from where it started!Read at ur own discretion!
Kurukshetra was a peace conference compared to the fights me and one of my best friends Dhyanesh had(oops! have)!
U can almost savour the desperation in the man in this pic(only a frustrated man would sit on a fire hydrant and put his face in his hands,knowing it's gonna be fodder for the tabloid rags!somebody, get the guy an asprin!oh rob!!!)
that was just a teaser! here's the real deal 
*Disclaimer*
The online Dictionary defines "music" as an art of sound in time that expresses ideas and emotions in significant forms through the elements of rhythm, melody, harmony, and color.
8.Gary jules-Mad world
